A Habit is a Habit, not good or bad. Habit brings suffering. Human being Seek Pleasure and in pursuit of Pleasure, a Habit gets developed. Where there is Pleasure, there ought to be Pain. Pleasure and Pain are two sides of a Coin.

I drink alcohol. Every evening I drink. It is the thought of having pleasure, silence and meeting self, which provokes me to drink. When I start drinking, I feel dullness which I assume as calmness. My body start becoming insensitive and I lose control over my mind. I then follow a pattern, which is because each time when I drink, I do same things and hence I am calling it as pattern.

I take remote of television in my hands and I keep changing channels, in search of something which I will like. I search channels so that I can like something. How can I like something when my mind is insensitive? So, I keep changing channels and I don't find anything interesting.

Interesting...aha...how can anything interest me, when my body is dull, and my mind is insensitive. I then, play with my mobile. Sometimes I read old WhatsApp messages and see Facebook posts of friends or friend's friend, whom I don't know and have no interest. My mind is insensitive hence I keep scrolling the screen in search of something which can interest me. Television channels, WhatsApp messages, Facebook posts and so on. I send some messages to my friends to demonstrate my affection towards them. I even feel and state sorry for my past deed. I pretend to be responsible, affectionate and sometime even saint. I become philosopher as well. I also become spiritual.

While I am changing channels, scrolling smart phone screen, I keep changing my role from an affectionate friend to responsible human being to a philosopher to a spiritual person. My mind is still insensitive, yet I am doing all that. I follow a pattern. I eat more and I drink more. Next day, who suffers. My body? Due to dullness, no exercise and slow reflexes. Or My mind? Due to negative thoughts of regret. Or my body and mind both? I try to understand who the sufferer is?

How can we separate Body, mind, thoughts? Thoughts of having pleasure comes in mind and eventually body suffers. Body suffers and then again thought of suffering comes in mind. So, the cycle continues.  Every next day, after I had drink, this cycle continues, and repeat thought comes that I need to change this pattern. And then comes evening and the same thought of having pleasure. So, I am weak and slave of my thoughts of having pleasure and I allow my body to suffer more than my mind or mind to suffer more than my body.